New Journal
I thought I would have more to say, but it sort of has slipped my mind.
Just How It's Going
Last night must have been the most I have ever tossed and turned while not being able to fully fall asleep, ever. It was really annoying. But finally, I was able to completely pass out after 5 am. The last time I got up to get a drink and look at the clock. Lol, I don't know why I wouldn't, but I do know that my mind was babbling a bunch of nonsense, like it was on it's way to discovering the genius answer to something, anything.
But it was okay, I guess.This bug doesn't want to go away either. I can breathe through my nose again, but my sinuses are clogged. I sound stuffy.
I keep talking, babbling to people. I a lot of times feel like some don't want to listen (or read). Well, not that they don't, but that it's not really an interest to them. So sorry to some, when I can't stop talking
I usually don't do that, but with fevers, I tend to break the rules of trying to keep everyone happy. So I'll say what ever I want, show more of my crazy analytical side. Oh well, I enjoy it. I'm very happy I'm really tired. Waiting for my parents to get back from picking up my brothers. My bros went out to play airsoft with some friends. Lol I really wish I could have went. But I told my youngest bro to ask if we all could play sometime.
A lot of things are starting to look more beautiful than ever. Even if I have seen them everyday, and used to think they were beautiful. It's just so wah! I'm not sure how to describe it. I think I'm lost in my own world. And I'll do what ever it takes to stay within it
I'm so excited for next weekend. I might be able to see my love. It's been two months? since last time I got to hug him, lol. I'm not sure. I know it's not that long, if you want to compare like my brain is trying to do, but any amount of time away from the ones you love truest and deepest, is almost too much. I'm so glad I have my family too. We all have our ups and downs, but we still are there for each other, most days
Me and my brother, the one I share the title of "The Middle Child" haven't been as close as we used to be. Well, he's just interested in a lot of other things or activities lately. My youngest one, he's stopped being as sweet as he used to. But yesterday
I went out to wash the family van. After that I drove around downtown and spotted flowers near my old church. So I went around the block to go park in the huge parking lot behind all of the stores. I passed the Flower Garden and seen the tulips starting to bloom. They are just starting I tell ya I was sitting there for who knows how long. I lost all track of time. My brothers yelled out my name, for they like to be loud like that. They were on their way to the library. My youngest brother, then just sat close by me, on the ground. I asked him how he was. All of his answeres were so sweet. Thennn, My middle bro wanted to leave, but The youngest said he wanted to stay with me It was so nice. Anyways, I'll get on with the feature
Randomness
19. One time I won second place in sparring, within a martial arts tournament.
20. I had a great kick to the first place winner's head. Everyone gasped. I thought I was in trouble, or did something wrong lol. After that, I guess I wasn't as aggressive.
21. I haven't been as active as I used to, and I wish I was.
22. Everyone always thought I would be really tall and someday be a model (when I was a kid of course). I could pull off the first part with some shoes
but modeling Pshh.I'm short.
23. There are some really good women on dA that I have grown to love.
